John and I have been together six years today - on the 16th March 2001 we first met and went out together for a drink - we have been together ever since.
I met John on the internet - yahoo actually - back in them days Yahoo had directories and you could look through lists of people and see who was on line. John was lonely - he knew his ex had met someone online - so one lonely night he looked through the list and clicked on me - he said Hello and said 'I said Hello as everyone else says Hi'. I will never forget that first conversation!! I was always chatting to people but somehow I knew John was different - I just had a feeling. We arranged to meet after we had chatted on phone and sent numerous emails to each other, which I still have! I was going through my divorce at the time and had just split up from my boyfriend Jason - so I was not feeling ready for another man at the time. John said he was not ready for another woman either. We had the children in common and used to chat about them. I think we got close without realising. John's children lived in Sittingbourne, he had a caravan in Hastings and I lived in Brighton. Mostly, we got together at weekends. I remember one Sunday night as John was leaving I cried and cried and hurt like I'd never hurt before - that day I knew how much I loved him - the love came over me without even trying.
I still hurt when he leaves me - I still hurt when I leave him. Somebody once said to me 'oh that wont last, you'll soon be moaning about him'. How wrong they were. I still love him as much as that day I first realised I loved him - in fact I love him more and more each day.