Feel funny today - can't put my finger on it.
Went to school for work placement - loved it! Really like being in a school - its a good atmosphere - there are so many troubled kids though - its sad - how do they know how to behave when their parents behave in such a bad way - some of them only know that shouting and swearing and storming out of a room is normal behaviour - how can you tell children off for that when that is all they know? All you can do is say that its not acceptable and hope they learn from the outside world and the world inside school - its very sad, very very sad.
One boy, who when we first entered the class was shouting and throwing things came out with such a beautiful statement it made me want to cry. At the end of the day we were looking at the photographs we had taken and a picture came up of the sky and we asked the class what feeling it gave them. This little boy put his hand up and said 'freedom' - bless him - he said that sky is freedom there are no rules and no telling off - on the ground you get told off and cant do things. Bless his little heart - he had so much anger in him - it makes you wonder what happens to him at home. Can I be a teacher? Would I be able to do it? Its so hard!
I've got so much work to do - Im getting on with the dissertation - doing more and more each day - Im very confused with it though - and keep changing my mind on things - still got a bit of reading to do to - this is the list of other work I have to do:
Make power point presentation (15 mins) of my work or my dissertation.
Write a 500 word essay on what Proffessional Development means to me.
Keep a journal of work placement and write up how it helps me with my professional development.
Write a CV
Write an artist's statement.
Get together a folder with all my bits and pieces do with professional development - i.e. any emails, letters Ive written/received - any publications Ive been in or been part of, exhibitions Ive been to etc.
Make six promotional objects!
Do my actual artwork - which is cross stitch of text messages and film me doing it.
Keep a journal of my artwork too.
I think that is it - I might even have other little bits to do!!
Oh yeah I remember Ive got to get together a cd of all my pics in jpeg, and pfd or something cant remember got it written down somewhere. Oh blimey!!!
Well Ive got tomorrow, Ive got wednesday (thursday im in hospital having my hysteroscopy thing - got to rest all day after) and Ive got Friday - really want my dissertation finished by Friday then its got time to be looked over by tutor before deadline.
Sorry about all this - not interesting really is it but it really helped for me to write it all down - I really need all of you - you dont realise how much it helps to know you are listening! You have helped me through - especially Dianna - she is good at telling me straight - get on with it Laine!! LOL
Take care all