So sorry I haven't posted any pics of my show yet and I have also not looked at any of my alerts.
I feel so wierd - I think Im a bit depressed or something - I have not been very well for the past couple of days. I have felt really really groggy like you do when you've taken loads of pain killers but felt like it constantly. Very very tired and very sad.
I should be happy and elated this is a new beginning to my life. Why do I feel so depressed and that everyone is against me. I snapped at everyone yesterday (tears falling as I write). John woke up this morning early and said he was going fishing with the boys - I cried and cried - why? I could have gone with them but no I get all funny and say no Ive got loads to do here pointing to the pile of washing up and the kids school uniforms to get ready. Why the hell didnt I just smile and say oooh thats nice how lovely I will come (now Im really crying!) Whats wrong with me Im so so sad I want to cry and cry all the time and John is really cross with me now - he doesnt understand he thinks Im just spoiling their fun - Im not I just dont know what to do with myself. Then I stop feeling sad and get all moody and think oh why dont you all just clear off and leave me alone!
John just left for fishing and said to me why dont you come? I said no Im not coming but really I wanted to go!!!
Oh dear - I really dont know what to do with myself.