I'm slowly getting better. Wierd that feeling of depression - you don't know why you feel so down. No-one else understands you and you dont even understand yourself. Im really sorry I havent visited any of your journals - I just keep looking at all the alerts piling up in my inbox and I cant deal with them! I dont even feel like writing my journal either.
Ive been out and about loads though - Ive been making the most of the weather when its nice - I feel its better than being on the computer all the time. I think thats part of it - I need to break away from the computer more and enjoy the out doors while the weather is good. Ive been walking loads with my dog and even went fishing on Saturday which is something I thought I would never do! I caught three fish!! yay!! Put them back though - poor little fishies dont want to hurt them!
John and I have decided after a lovely walk through a caravan park the other day that we are going to buy a caravan next year when Im earning. So that cheered me up - something to look forward to. Things like money and stuff have got me down just recently. John and I really love the outdoor life and I can just imagine us in the lakes with our little caravan - sounds like heaven to me.
Ive been reading alot and I finished my book, Watchers, Dean Koontz. Fantastic book - thoroughly enjoyed it and I would love to read one of his books again. My next book is Fluke by James Herbert.
Ive got my application form to fill out for the school - a Teaching Assistant position has come up - cant remember if I told you all. Anyway, this is my next step to the path of my teaching - I have to work in a school for about a year first before I can do the graduate training programme. Going to fill that out tomorrow and Im meeting one of the teacher's after school so she can look at it for me to check it and make sure its what they want.
I hope you are all ok and enjoying the weather when we get it. I will try and visit you all again soon. Im glad I made an entry today - I wasnt going to but now Im glad I did it made me feel a little better - I am much happier - just still feel wierd.
Love Laine xxxxx