Thursday, 18 January 2007

Windy Thursday

I loved Stuart's entry today - because I realised there is another game I can play on my DS!!!! Can't believe it - I am so excited. Stuart I'm gonna get one when I have got the money!!!

Has anyone tried the Walkers Lamb Mint crisps - they are so so gorgeous - just when I thought I'd cut down on crisps - I find a flavour that is very addictive!!! Oh well.

Didnt have a good day today - my dissertation came back to me - needs loads doing to it - basically says that I'm a crap writer - well she doesn't actually say that but there were no positives whatsoever - and what with Sam's appointment looming I just can't cope.  She said to me that she wants the full draft handed back to her in a week!!! Yeah right I'm really gonna do that!!! Another tutor came in to talk to me and I just lost it - couldnt stop crying. My friend Paul explained to him how I was feeling and my tutor said Laine you have to put Sam first.  He is right but I dont want to fail this course - I want to do well!! I feel though at the moment that I'm not being a very good artist as my mind is not wholey on it.  When she explained to me about my dissertation and what needed doing - I really felt like I wanted the floor to swallow me up as I couldn't see how I was going to do it!!!!! Scary!!

Right now I'm thinking that I'm not going to get this degree finished this year - I might have to defer it - but then John wouldnt be happy it would mean another year!!!

I hadnt told you all that I've not been well myself and the nurse thinks it might be endometriosis or early menopause - maybe thats why Im going crazy!!!! I really need to go back to the nurse - right I'm making that appointment right now!!!

Laine xxxxxx

5 comments:

sdrogerson said...

poor you of course Sam comes first.
BUT like all academic work just take a deep breath and have another go - it will be a lot easier than you think

bethjunebug said...

Oh Sweety, God will take care of you. Just pray for his guidance and understanding. You came by my journal and left a comment, that has burdened my heart. You don't know if you believe? Oh my precious one, look around you of all that God the creator has made. Take for instance the human body, its so high tech, and complicated, how each organ works, when to breathe in, and out, heart how to beat, which way for the blood to flow through your body, how the stomach knows how to digest and take the food and nutrition to where it needs to go. I could go on, and on. But the fact is God created it, no blast where it just happened, like scientist are trying to say now. Or come from monkeys. God owns the universe. God made you in his image. When you believe in Him, new ideas, and world are shown to you. And God holds you in His hand and looks out after you. So believe my dear, "BELIEVE".
God Bless,
Liz in Virginia, USA
http://journals.aol.com/bethjunebug/Bethjunebug

labdancer51 said...

Oh Laine, you have so much going on at one time no wonder you got so upset. I think your tutor is right, your son must come first. Then of course you`re not feeling too well either. Take care.

Hugs

Sandra xxxx



jeadie05 said...

Poor Elaine yes of course ,you need to look after Sam ,first then sort out you ,and you will have a better attitude towards everything,Feel better soon  ..love Jan xx

jlocorriere05 said...

Sorry to hear you have problems Laine, you must get yourself and Sam sorted out first before you can think of getting down to your work. I hope you can get something done for your health problems, maybe hormones would help. Jeannette xx