Thank you so much to you all for your lovely comments and all trying to cheer me up!! I am feeling better today - John is back :) - and I had an ok day at college - which is better than a bad day!! I didnt get to see my course leader which I was hoping too. But, I hopefully will see him on Wednesday!
I've got to go to work tomorrow! Not looking forward to that its hard work - we are thoroughly cleaning the lodges so that they are spik and span for when the new season begins!
Oh, I nearly flipped again tonight - I think I told you all I have to take Sam up to London for tests to see if he is growing properly (my eldest son)!! Anyway, its on 9th February and it means staying overnight in London on the 8th coz the trains dont go early enough in the morning to get us there on time. Well guess what!!! John has to be in Germany that week - all week!!!! So who looks after Joe and my doggie???? Anyway, I phoned up my Mum and Dad for a chat - and my Dad answered - I chatted to him for over an hour and eventually I told him about my dilema and we worked out that I should go stay with them - my Dad would take me to Brighton Station (trains better there) which means I could go on the Friday and they will look after Joe and Oscar!!! So sorted and Im happier now - also means I can share the experience with them as John wont be here - so I wont feel that alone about it all!!!!
So Im feeling better my friends. Its onwards and upwards and take each day as it comes.
Oh and I have an appointment to see the Nurse on Thursday!!!